Bloom Relaunch: Part 2

What happened in getting that email with the new task and that new reporting tool was clarity.  

I looked up and realized that all the feelings from the summer- the boredom, the feeling of things being undone, the need for more- was because the work I was doing was ultimately not mine.  

I was working on someone else’s dream, when I was being called to step into a new space to take mine even further. 

In that image of who I could have been in five years.  The fat and frazzled one?  That would be bad; but, the thought of being unfulfilled was worse.  

The thought of ignoring this call- a call that has been there since 2013, but only gotten louder in the last six months- for another five years was too much to bear.  

To look up at 35 and wish I had listened?  To wish I had at least tried?  I could imagine no greater regret.

So, that is what I am doing:

1. Definitely taking better care of myself.  Physical health is priority numero uno. This one piece speaks to so many other goals of mine.  None of which include running marathons or a number on a scale; but, rather, the ability to feel confident and to have energy.  There is so much I want to do and if I am constantly insecure or tired, I will never be able to give my big goals a chance.  
2. Focusing more on my family and not just in “not working” time.  I am building a career where these two parts of my life can be intertwined.  Through the farm, Bloom and even my part time job that I took on this summer, I can see this being a possibility.  For the first time in a while, I have a female boss about seven years ahead of me in the working mom game.  She gets it and it’s such a relief.  Not to mention, I don’t travel anymore.  <Insert “Praise Hands” emoji here>
3. I am building MY businesses.  I have so many goals for the farm and I now have the time to focus on them.  Likewise, with time dedicated to Bloom, my hope is to share stories of growth in this season.

What will that look like?  Not like gardening and recipes like there has been here in the past.

But, rather, stories about friendships and marriage.  Goals and motivation.  Motherhood and finding identity in this role and others.  Entrepreneurship and getting my footing after so long in the corporate grind.  

My goal with these stories is inspire you and challenge you.  But, to be as honest as possible as well.

One of the strangest places for me in the last year or so has been blogs and Instagram.  There you can find tons of #millennialmoms… but, none of them looked like me or the great moms I know in real life.  They have perfectly blown out hair and slim bodies despite their six smiling, stylish, always well behaved children.  They have date nights and dreamy farmhouse sinks. $100 swaddle blankets and the ability to shop at Anthropologie everyday without any indication they had a job. 

Here, you won’t find lists of items that need to be on a registry or advice for getting your baby to sleep through the night. (PS- if you have that advice for a toddler, feel free to shoot me a DM.)  You won’t see a preview of the Nordstrom Anniversary sale or Pinterest Perfect Birthday parties.  

Instead, you will find heart, truth, and laughter.  A place where it’s okay to not have all the answers; but, try your best anyways.  And a community where you can say, “You too?  I thought I was the only one.”

Welcome, friend.  I am so glad you are here.